day twelve

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Post a picture of something that you love.

These are a few of the things that I love...

My fake glasses, my scarves, my jewelry, books and my shoes! 

There are many other things that I love such as the color Aqua seafoam, my friends and brownies. 

day eleven

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 A picture of something you hate.

I don't just fear heights with all of my heart and soul but I also hate them. 

They are petrifyingly awful!

day ten

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 A picture of the person you do the most messed up things with.

Melissa and I have been through a ton together and there were definitely some of my most wild times ever! This was us a ton of years ago, back in high school. 

day nine

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A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.

My aunt is one of the most important and influential of all of the people I know. She has spent countless hours on the phone with me or rubbing my back through the aches and pains of life. I love her so much. 

day eight

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Post a picture that makes you laugh.

These are my roomie grandparents, gammy Karina and pappy Derrick. They learned how to do stage makeup to make themselves look like this and went around the school that day as old people. They made so many people laugh! And they pulled it off so well! It was one of the best days ever and now whenever I see the pictures I laugh super hard!

blogger distress

So I realized at some point this last week that I'm really not sure what a blog is meant for. I read other people's blogs and I see so many different ideas and schemes. I always want to copy what they do, but I realize you can't really do that with a blog because it is your own creative juices flowing. But then when I do start in on my own creativeness I start to ramble. Thats really not all that productive. Nor is it going to bring in an audience, because my ramblings are not interesting in the slightest.

I imagine I could write about books and go on and on about the drivel and fodder that make up my interest in a very well written piece of literature. But, would that really be all that interesting?

I could go on to add things such as the 30 day photo challenge that are really just for boredoms sake and will probably have no significance in my life.

I will probably continue to add ridiculous prose on the acts and scenes from my life and those that surround me every day. The question here is whether or not that would be entertaining? I strive to not only entertain myself but to entertain an audience. But in doing so am I being prideful? The things that I post are sometimes boastful while other times over the top, all in the hope that someone will read it and get some amusement. Is my doing so an act of pride? Thinking that what I write will interest others? Because innately we are each of us prideful and a rather green group. And by green I mean that of envy. As I said before there is the wish to steal other's ideas but a want to still be creative. Are all of these things possible together?

I guess that I am left in distress because I wish to be an entertainer while also being myself, while those two things can be one in the same it is also a difficult concept to grasp. Life is an act, we are always putting forth an appearance for others to see. And if we have this act that we are putting forth how is it that we can be "ourselves?" This is really the central idea for a blog, to be ourselves and post what we wish for others to see without a care in the world.

But there is nowhere on earth that we can be, without caring about the opinion of others. Not even the net.

As Constantin Stanislavski taught it when teaching about acting, your objective is to ask the magic if. What would I do if I were the character in this situation? This situation is life, or a play or a blog. So what would you do if you were a character putting forth an appearance in these areas?

day seven

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Post a picture of your most treasured item

One of my most treasured items is my bookshelf. Not only do I love the whole thing but it is draped in all of my other favorite things, my pictures, penguins, books, jewelry, perfume and my trinkets. I Love it. 

day six

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Post a picture of someone you would like to change places with for a day.

I think I would like to be a fat little baby boy with a fat dog. A boy because I'm a girl and I wouldn't mind trying something new. I would like to be a fat baby cause then you don't have any worries, all you want is food and cuddly hugs. Sounds pretty amazing to me. A lot better than the worries that come with paying the bills and such!

day five

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Post a picture of your favorite memory.

Im not really sure that this is my very favorite of all of my memories but it is up there in the top ten. This is like 3 years ago. We had a lot of good times back then. It's funny to look at how many things have changed since then. 

day four

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Post a picture of your night

Me and the girls on a normal night just hangin out

day three

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Post a picture of the cast of your favorite television show

Supernatural

Sam, Dean and Castiel. SO HOT!!!

day two

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A picture of you and the person closest to you. I couldn't decide so it's a toss up between my top two. 

This is my aunt Megan and I at her wedding. She is basically a mother to me. 

This is my twin Colt, we have been partners in crime for years! 

30 day photo challenge. day 1.

Today I am starting the 30 day photo challenge. I will be posting up a different photo every day as pertains to the parameters of the challenge. I think it sounds fun so have fun looking through them!

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...a picture of yourself along with 15 facts...

1. I am saucy (its a fact now that it's in writing)

2. I am blind in my left eye

3. I love, love, LOVE to read. books are my guilty pleasure, especially owning them.

4. I used to dream about being Alice and traveling around Wonderland, i still strive to find the rabbit hole.

5. Im scared of being on stage but live to perform

6. I am so afraid of heights that I cry when near them

7. I still climbed the Eiffel tower and looked over the edge. i cried the whole time.

8. I want to teach public speaking when I grow up

9. I have a twin, thats a boy, and nope we are not identical, thats impossible

10. my favorite number is 18

11. I crunch ice after every meal if it is available ( I know its annoying but its a bad habit)

12. traveling is one of my favorite things to do ( I have been to over 10 countries)

13. I painted my nails every day for an entire year on a dare

14. I have been in love

15. I still listen to the backstreet boys and I sing along at the top of my lungs the entire time. 

dating

Now don't get your hopes up from reading the title, of course I go on regular dates with boys but this particular post has nothing to do with that. This story is about a date I went on yesterday with my two girls, Rhiannan and Marynell. Mom and Dad decided that they needed to go on a date or something like that cause apparently to keep the romance alive you gotta do that kind of thing. I know it sounds weird to me too! In anycase that left me with two rather unhappy little girls since they were being left behind to hang out with boring old "raerae."
   So, instead of hanging out at the house we decided to go on a date of our own! We left the house to go to our favorite place of eating
 (other than Mcdonalds...I know, I know, gross but they have a play place and all you have to do is buy a drink and you can let them run wild for at least an hour. Its like MAGIC! they run for a little while and all of sudden oh darn they're tired and grumpy and bed doesn't sound like such a bad thing. like I said its magic.)

  Anyway, as I was saying favorite place of eating, Dennys! Yum! we love it, plus on Saturdays and Tuesdays kids eat free from 4 until 10, so it was perfect!
So we get there, hot mom over here gets checked out by the server (I mean really?! Im not a mom but I looked like it and the kid is still checking out my butt and other prominent areas. "I am not a menu sir, don't look at me like you want to order something, just take me to my table and hand me a real menu!")

So we finally get to our table which is one of those half moon set up booths that allows for the kids to slide all over the place. A perfect playground. So of course they go to town, crayons in hand they color, slide, climb and perch themselves in any area they can fit. It was fantastic! By the time the server came to our table it looked like we had moved in and weren't leaving for years. We finally got to order our food and drinks had already arrived at the table when we got to start the incredibly fun "why?" game.

"RaeRae, where is mommy?" Marynell
"on a date, just like us!" Jamie
"why?" Marynell
"cause her and dad want to." Jamie
"why?" Marynell
"cause they wanna keep the romance alive" Jamie
"why?" Marynell
"cause they are old and its harder at that age?" Jamie
"why?" Marynell
"cause they have two monsters living with them." Jamie
"why?" Marynell
"cause when a man loves a woman, monsters are created" Jamie
"why?" Marynell
"well according to the trajectory of the sun and moon at the time of origin, children can morph into incredibly lifelike horrors of the mind called a monster, so a perfectly stable and cute little kidlin can become a beast." Jamie
"why?" Marynell
and so on and so forth the game went until our food finally came to the table and so began the fiasco that is eating. By the time we left the table there was ranch spilling across the table and giant chocolate stains on Rhiannan and Marynell's shirts. It was a blast!

After dinner we went and got treats at Walmart, of course this consisted of us going around the whole place looking at everything before we even looked for candy. We began in the pet aisle where the girls tried to see if they could find any dead fish in the tanks (not my idea of fun but who asked me) Then we looked to see if we could find the biggest fish. After exhausting the possibilities of the fish tanks we moved on to every other aisle singing whatever song popped into our heads. My personal favorite one was

"One, Two buckle my shoe, three, four, shut door, five eleven wont'choo sing along with me."
My other favorite one Rhiannan made up for me which included alot of diva dives and "ooooooh ooooh aahaa woooooo" no real words but a ton of scatting. Loved it!

We finally went home after that and cuddled up on the couch to watch some good old Yo Gabba Gabba (dont ever let your children watch this, creepiest and weirdest show ever! but the kids LOVE it. I dont get it)

Best date ever, dinner, intelectual inquisition, a concert and cuddle time. I couldn't ask for more from a guy let alone a couple of my best girls.

I also am soooo in love with the fact that these girls are growing up so fast! Marynell was scowling super fierce at me yesterday and I asked her, "why do you have such a foul scowl?" and she told me she didn't want to talk about it right now. what?! your three! when did you start using language like that?! I love it! And Rhiannan is so super grown up too! she tells me all about the books that she is reading and I am just astounded!

What amazing little girls! We had the best DATE EVER!!!!

my life on the compound

Well the first week of school is over and our first tournament of the semester has passed.What an incredibly eventful time it has been!

I started my classes and I have to say I am soooo happy to be this busy! I am taking 19 credits which is a ton of work, plus I have my job along with 4 institute classes. So I don't get much time to myself, which is exactly how I like it. Wake up early, work all day, fall into bed, wake up and do it again. 

This weekend we went to our first forensics tournament also, which was up in Salt Lake City, so it was pretty close to home and easy peasy to get to. It was a three day swing tournament, meaning it was two different tournaments spanning three days in the exact same place with the exact same people but hosted by two different schools. There were around 30 schools present so it was a huge thing! There were schools spanning the U.S. Even some from Texas. The Texas kids were sooooo much fun to hang out with though! They had so much spunk and personality. They didn't care what anyone thought of them. One of the team members actually asked Emily, one of ours where our Compound was. She was taken aback,..."What compound???" The girl meant that since we were from Utah we had to be mormons which meant that we were obviously polygamous and she wanted us to show her our compound and help her get into it so she could explore. It was so funny! People believe so many stereotypes about Mormons. 

The team did amazing too! We took second place over all on the first day and Third place the second day. When they combined how we did both days together we took Third place again. My own personal placings in my 5 events were 2nd in After Dinner Speaking, 3rd in Impromptu, 2nd in Duo, 5th in Poetry and 5th in Persuasive. We took home a lot of trophies and I am very proud of our team. Our next tournament is in Arizona next month so...wish us luck!!!

I also got a new roommate this semester. I can't wait to get to know her. I am sure we will be good friends!

Update on the resolutions...Being a vegetarian SUCKS!!! I miss meat!!!

roses dont have thorns, thorns have roses

My New Years resolution this year is not one that I am particularly excited for, I imagine that it is a really good thing to go for but I am not too happy. It is something i have never tried before but it is a health thing. My doctor informed me that because I have lupus and they don't know what the cause is that I should prepare for everything. One of the beliefs is that lupus is made worse by the toxins put in your body from certain foods such as meats. So....

Resolution numero uno: become a vegetarian

I'm supposed to be a strict vegan but I just don't think I could do it. 

My other resolutions will be ones that I actually want to do

Resolution dos: exercise, exercise, exercise, at least 3 times a week minimum

Resolution tres: JBK, just be kind. No one deserves to be made fun of or dissed in any way. 

Resolution that is my favorite: .SMILE. every day as much as possible, be happy with life, don't be a negative nancy. I could be making someone's day better with a smile! 

Well, these are my resolutions and I'm super excited and stoked to get started, well for all but the first one! 

Happy new year lovies