im a freaking superhero, I eat zombies for breakfast

Im pretty sure that I could never forgive for what was done to me but all I can do is get over it. I mean really what is the point of having revenge? All that causes is more strife. What I really hope will happen is that they will feel bad for what they did. Get even? no. Get real. Life fucking sucks, live with the consequences. Im still alive, Im still here and Im still kickin. That is all that matters. Im no Alice in Wonderland, Cheshire wont lead me astray. Im so freaking superhero I eat zombies for breakfast. Thats all that matters, that i give enough of a fuck to keep going. And guess what? Im happy. I love my life. Its a party every day, whether I am coloring or dancing to ring around the rosie with my girls or Im downing a bottle of Whiskey with a few close friends. I like to have sex in the middle of the night and wake up to the feel of a man next to me. I love to get kissed on the forehead and be someones all. I have ideas and Im important. I want to be a girlfriend and I want to be a mother. All of the rest is just the in-between behind the scene part of life that no one gets to see or even cares about, its a tumble down the rabbit hole in slow motion. Behind the curtain of my life is one of the greatest shows on earth because it is my show. It is a gut wrenching, tear inducing nerd fest of fun and games. Im pretty sure that I could never forgive but maybe I will forget because this right here is the climax of a scene. Im a freaking superhero, I eat zombies for breakfast and i belong on the big screen. Get real. They say women today have more choices than the life I have chosen and perhaps I will get to try some of those out. But all I want is someone to hold me close, someone to wake me up with a kiss and some fast and furious sex. You want a way to wake up happy? Stop caring. Keep caring. Care about yourself and others but stop caring about what they think. Live with the consequences and deal with them, make more paths that will lead to more doors. Open one, shut one, leave a crack. Lock it behind you and throw away the key. Its all an experience, oak, ash, screen and glass. Its a door that you have to get through. Drink it and get smaller, but you cant find the key, eat it and get larger but you wont fit through the door. Stuck in a room, round with doors that you cant seem to flee. What makes you an individual is how you get free. Do you really need a white rabbit with a clock to help you reach the end of your journey? Or can you do it on your own? I mean after all, you are a freaking superhero, who else eats zombies for breakfast? Mix them with your oatmeal, infect a batch of pancakes, dribble some kryptonite on top and enjoy. No strife, no eye for an eye. Live with the way you feel because you fucked me over and I fucked me over. I have no reason to blame you because I made a choice. Now I have happiness, i found a key under the doormat, Alice did you look there? I opened the door and there was no garden, there was a controller and a t.v. and new game to start a new toy to play. All i can do is lead my players to an ultimate victory or respawn into my next rpg destiny. No need to forgive, if you want you can forget but life is fucking life and there is no reason to live it with regret.

impact, in a good way

snow escapades

Watch a video of me and my friends from Snow!!! Courtesy of Haven for making it and Shari for posting!

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slam poetry

Two pieces by Slam Poets that I admire. love these.

spider legs

Its almost HALLOWEEN!!! I swear this is my favorite holiday but just wait until November and you will find out that Thanksgiving is my favorite, but dont stop there because I'm pretty sure Christmas is my favorite too! I just love, love, love holidays with all of my heart. Its a day to do so many extra special things! I like to randomly do nice things for others but I think that holidays just give me extra license to do them. This Halloween I am dressing up as Little Red Riding Hood. I have to work on Halloween but I'm still dressing up at work. Im also baking cup cakes as we discuss this. Im going to decorate them like spiders and then give them to my students. Its going to be tons of fun!

So the Halloween fun so far has been quite a bit more than last year. I went to my very first corn maze with Shari Beari and all the gang from her apartment. It was so much fun, but sadly I wore a bright color so I couldn't hide in the corn and scare people. In any case it was a blast! They even had this pit of corn that you could play in, I'm pretty sure it was for little kids but I think we had just as much fun as any 5 year old could in that pit!

me and shari!

shari and I as ZOMBIES!

Haven and I 

CORN!!!

The whole gang!

so much corn!

Posin at the pumpkin patch!

The second thing I did for Halloween was to carve Pumpkins, I carved some with my cousin Britney then I carved more with my cousins Rhiannan and Marynell. 

I only have the one picture of Britney with our pumpkins tho...

The third thing I did for Halloween was to go to a Haunted house with Miss Emily, Kirk, Sleight and Emily 2. We had tons of fun. First we went out to dinner, then we saw a scary movie (Paranormal Activity 3) then we went to the Haunted house. We went to the Haunted house called Nightmare on 13th. Click here to learn more about the Haunted House! It was soooooo scary! Im pretty sure I climbed up a wall at one point because I was so scared! And of course the boys made the girls go first because as kirk pointed out "We boys wont get scared so you girls have to go first so you can actually enjoy it." WHATEVER!!! Kirk was scared out of his mind! He just didn't wanna go first.

I have come to the conclusion that if I cant see the monster, he cant see me. Therefor I close my eyes and hide behind my hand!

The fourth thing so far that I have done for halloween is to take the girls Trunk or Treating. That is where you go to a large parking lot and people have their trunks open and they are full of candy. The kids walk around and say "Trunk or Treat!" then they get some candy. Its just like Trick or Treating but less walking. Marynell dressed as a Witch and Nan dressed as a Vampire! They looked so good! After that we came home, cooked pumpkin seeds and watched Casper the friendly Ghost! 

Vampire Nan

Witch Marynell

funny faces!

We were supposed to be cute, did we pull it off???

Being in Character!

Got my basket and everything, just walkin through the woods to Grandmas!

sweet baby Sophia, not her costume but cute all the same!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!

The finished Cupcakes!

one lane freeway

I love Halloween. It may just be one of my favorite holidays of life. This year I am dressing up as little red riding hood (skanky version) Im super excited. Now I hope I can find some fun parties to go to while wearing my new outfit! So far I have gotten to go to a corn maze with some friends for halloween. Im thinking more fun like this will follow in the near future!!!

On a lets get you caught up note, I got a fantastic job at a college. I LOVE IT!!! Im kind of an assistant teacher. Big step up from being unemployed thank goodness.

Also I had my 21st birthday! went and partied the night away. I got a tattoo on my foot as a present to myself as well as getting my nose re pierced. It was sooo much fun!!! There I am with my first legal drink!!! A Malibu Hurricane!

where did my manners go?

The next time you look in the mirror, smile.

The next time you walk down the street, scuff your shoes a little to let the world know you been there.

The next time fall comes around, hop on all the fallen leaves until they wont crunch anymore.

The next time you get a balloon, let go.

The next time you take a drink, savor.

The next time you stand in line to pay, make conversation.

The next time you see something drop, pick it up.

The next time a child turns around in their seat and makes a face at you, make one back.

The next time see someone you love, tell them so.

The next time you cry when someone hurts you, hug someone that loves you.

The next time you make dinner, share it with someone who doesnt have any.
The next time you meet someone new, be nice.

The next time you outgrow your shirt, donate it.

The next time you build a snowman, take a bite out of his carrot nose.

The next time you have something to say, say it.